Anxiety, Doubt and Triumph
Last year, in 2022, the organization I founded had a significant goal to build a playground at a school in a rural town in Jamaica. We needed $25,000 to cover the cost of the playground supplies and other costs. A month from the trip, we still had about $15,000 to raise for the trip. I’ll be honest, I started to panic. I became angry, fussy, short-tempered, and overall negative. I was so fed up with people. Why wasn’t anybody supporting this important project? I had a pity party to top all pity parties. I knew that God always came through for me, but raising $15,000 in 30 days seemed impossible for even God.
Self-doubt tried settled in. I wasn’t even sure anymore if I believed this was what God wanted me to do. I thought I was out of His will because the money wasn’t showing up. After much anxiety and headaches, I decided to shut down the voices whispering despair to me. I started to pray. I repented for my unbelief and reminded God what He told me many years ago when He called me to do work in Jamaica. His promise was that everything I and everyone I needed to be successful in the work He called me to do was already provided in my network.
God isn’t a man to lie. His word will not come back void. During this time, I also lost my passport. The adversity was coming in hot and heavy. By the time I left for Jamaica, God provided every cent we needed with some leftover! God proved to me once again that He is the Jehovah Jireh.
Rachel Dolcine