Exposed
Could you still love me if I exposed the darkest secrets of my life…..
All of the past mistakes, embarrassing shame, inner turmoil and hidden strife….
What would you say if I told you that I had 3 abortions….
Because fear gripped me due to what I could not foresee…
Would you say that God could no longer love me…
I mean, because technically, I was on a killing spree…
Would you ask me how is it that I could take life away and yet still get up each morning to live my life day by day….
Would you judge me if I told you that I once was an exotic dancer for 6 months?
Would you crucify me to that stripper pole,
and change the way you view me as a whole
just because I did something I felt was out of my control?
Yes… Yes.. I did take off my clothes and dance to pay for freedom of a jail cell of abuse
Because getting beat bloody by your beloved husband leaves you lost and confused
Feeling like there’s nothing left to lose
And those suicidal thoughts becomes the only voice that youre listening to
Now, let me set something straight
I’m not trying to justify my wrong doings
Just doing what it takes now to learn from my mistakes
Cuz at the end of the day, I realized I had lost myself somewhere along the way…
Or wait…. Maybe I never had myself to lose in the first place
Because so many times, I had given my soul and body away
In exchange for love that was misrepresented…
that became a cycle that was repeated,
And the results was a broken heart , shattered and depleted
It deleted the truth of what real love looks like and feels like
And it’s like
All of these dark mistakes from my past is trying to overshadow this joyous light
That is shut up in my bones,
But overcoming condemnation is as easy as realizing that you without sin can caste the first stone..
So God, Take this stony heart out of my chest
And cast it into the sea of forgetfulness
And please help me to see that the sins of my past is not what my future holds for me
Take my present, and let it evolve my past into a mouth piece
That will become so loud and goes forth to set other people free
And those who have ears to hear, let them pierce their earlobes with earrings of freedom
That rings with peace
To forgive themselves and release
Because you are not your past, and the things that was done to you….
You’re so much more and there’s a bigger picture to hold on to
The strength that has formed over time on the inside of you
Is now like a pearl necklace on display for the whole world to view
Your struggles were not meant just for you,
They were put in place for you to overcome
In order for you to help the next person come through…
The Artist